Thoughts.. that could mine or yours!

Yes I'm ‘differently different’… I try and try, but never give up It's not that I'm ignorant, but it's okay to ignore at times I trust, when I decide not to I break often and stand strong for another storm It's okay… It's okay to stay hopeful instead of hopeless It takes courage to be sensitive than being insensitive I know people dupe, plot games and win I know they think of others as a sin I know… I know, the memories I can’t undo and I know the memories I would love to redo I don’t run away from pain and failure I am indestructible yet endurable But it's okay… It’s okay to Love yourself, like none else It’s worthy to be ‘differently different’ While I strive for elation I always smile coz, I'm alive, and I've got a life !!!    Pooja Agarwal October, 2018

Look... Hey just look, what you did to me... Sleepless nights Wet eyes... Fearing dreams My heart screams... Tearing thoughts Thinking what if not... Fake smiles I run for miles... I beg to die I'm fine I lie... and then... When I wake up, I wear makeup Just to show up, how to fight... I just can't... Just can't Thank you enough... my LIFE !!! -Pooja Agarwal

We all in a way, experience the sense of freedom in our day-to-day life, but do not address it to ourselves. What we need is to recognize and address that sense of freedom to make it the essence of our lives and tell ourselves that besides all the odds we are still alive; alive to shine brighter and brighter. Small things that we do every day, if we take a deep breath and feel, we can learn how we can free our mind, body and soul, while…..  sipping a cup coffee on a rainy day or gazing at the sky riding a two-wheeler while its breezing and your soul is no more dry solo travels, like backpackers, being yourself, bidding your worries bye bye listening to music, solo movies, street shopping, coloring your greys with a dye meeting friends and family on weekends, still smiling when the Monday is nigh hard times, learning with failures, though you know you will have to try big smile with a little tear coz you know you don’t have to cry remembering all odds, revampi...

Sometimes u just want to delete the unwanted people n memories from ur life...  U start  deleting chat history but that doesn't help...  U delete pictures...  And that doesn't help... You also revisit ur contact list n delete people u dont wanna b in touch anymore and of course that doesn't help either...  That constant feeling of just getting rid of ur past or something which gives u pain is the most horrible feeling....  We can't accept the fact that there are really many things which you can't undo... You don't want it you just can't handle it anymore.... That frustration... that pain keeps u low all the time n u start doubting all the people around u... N that's the point where you just want to be alone...  Full of sorrows n anger... The only way left for us is to face it and accept it and live with it..... You can't undo what has happened already and you really can't change people n their thinking about u...  All u can do is to  do ...

Mein woh guzraa waqt ban jaungi Jo kabhi wapas nahi aata... Mein wo kal ka aehsaas ban jaungi Jo yaad bahut aata... Mein wo samundar banjaungi Jiska ant nahi mil paata... Mein woh khayaal banjaungi Jo aaj tumhe nahi aata... Mein aaj nahi to kal, chali hi jaungi Mujhe koi rok nahi paata Mein woh guzraa "waqt" hu... Jisse sab yuhi gawa dete hein Par kisi ko samajh nahi aata... - Pooja

I may be fake, bad, fat, ugly, mad, spoiled, lonely, stupid, arrogant and a weirdo but you my mom, u never judged me.. U know my darkest as well as d brightest side... U know what I'm today and why I'm like this today. I've made mistakes and I still do... I know I'm weirdo and i apologize too  but u know m hurt deep inside when I'm not even sorry, coz u understand that silence n that guilt. U have not just but been with me at my best but in my worst too.. U have even felt the deepest silence of my life and i can't thank u enough for that. I know I've made several frnds in life; some r still there n some have left n some r going to leave me soon but I'm sure you'll still b with me not only coz I'm your daughter but because you know my journey and you've walked it with me. I've always looked for being loved but never found someone, may be coz I don't deserve or may be its not in my destiny but you Mumma, you managed to tolera...